Friday, Apr. 15, 2005 at 10:58 p.m.
The Break Up...
Listening to: The Killers
I feel: confused and lonely

Me and Nick broke up on Easter. I was devestated for a few days. On the Wednesday after Easter, I realized that it was for the best because we could never work out. We just couldn't get along. I think I'm much better off without him, but I still miss him sometimes. On a few occurances since we broke up, I've had dreams about us being together again. Those dreams confuse the hell out of me and I don't like them at all. They make me wonder if us breaking up is the right thing to do or not. But I know we're doing the right thing... aren't we?

I still miss him every once in a while, but not as much as before. That makes me even more sad knowing that though. It reminds me of how feelings can mean nothing at times and how everything is constantly changing, if you want it to or not. It reminds me of how fickle everything is and how nothing ever lasts forever, no matter how much you want it to. There are just as many unhappy endings as there are first times for everthing. I would have really wanted me and Nick to work.

I guess now I can spend more time with people I have fun with, instead of worrying about him being jealous and getting pissed off at me. I have more time to myself, which I really needed. I've been having a lot more fun lately. I don't have to worry about Nick anymore. This whole thing is like a breath of fresh air.

I don't think I want to have another serious relationship for a really long time, but who knows? Maybe I'll meet somebody who will change my mind. But for now, I don't want to get wrapped up in anything like that again. It wasn't good for me in the long run. I ended up sacraficing more than what was returned to me and then I got dumped. I don't want to go through that again right now.
rewind--fast forward� [comments]

The Break Up... - Friday, Apr. 15, 2005
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